I glanced one more time in the mirror. The puffiness around my eyes was still there. I blinked a few times. My red-rimmed lids held back a few rogue tears. I hate confrontations. I know I said hurtful things and wish I could take them back. I didn’t realize the level of bitterness that was tucked away in my heart. It only took one heated moment to cause it to surface from its hidden space in my heart. I breathed out a trembling sigh as I turned for the door. Time to make this right. God and I will have to sort this out later. That’s a confrontation I’m not looking forward to, either.
Psalms 139 verses 23-24 are not for the faint of heart. Asking God to search our hearts and try us is like praying for patience! Things are going to get real very quickly! When you pray this, you are inviting Him to enter places even you have not entered. Thoughts and emotions will be brought into the light. Situations will arise to verify your utmost trust and dependence on Him.
Yet, those who love Him have nothing to fear. For they have also prayed for any hidden sins, faults, failures and shortcomings to be covered by His blood. It’s in sincerity that they seek His careful scrutiny and watchful guidance. They have entrusted their fragile lives to the skillful and meticulous Potter. They know their broken pieces become something beautiful in the Potter’s hands. To them who love Him, eternity is an important matter. A confrontation between the Creator and the buried secrets of the heart will put our heavenly goals into perspective. In the end, it’s worth being tried by the Master Restorer.